Today…. I was bitchy.

Today did not start out well at all. I hadn’t bought enough of the things I knew I’d want to eat, my eldest seems to LOVE my cucumber slices… and I woke up hungry, with the wonderfully delicious smell of … Continue reading

It’s my Day 3!!! :)

YAY!!!! I feel wonderful. It’s just that simple, I. feel. wonderful. The simple words, 10 Day Transformation, are the cause of this. Purium is the cause of this. I feel amazing. I know it’s only day 3, I still have … Continue reading

Say Hello

to a “Healthier Me”. Today is the 24 of July and I started my ’10-Day Celebrity Transformation’. I decided, after looking up a lot of things and reading many more items, that this is probably my one shot to being … Continue reading

My 2015 New Year’s Resolutions

Every new day is a black page to be wrote upon, each chapter a new year. What you wish to fill those pages and chapters of your book with is up to you.

Every new day is a black page to be wrote upon, each chapter a new year. What you wish to fill those pages and chapters of your book with is up to you.

Recently I was approached by the admin of Beautiful Outlaws about joining a group on Facebook that she had set up. The idea she has for this group is “helping each other succeed in our New Year’s resolutions”, a group to help eachother stay motivated, and to be the “cheerleaders” for eachother. She asked each of us to introduce ourselves and to state what our goals were for the year. This was not a hard request, but it did make me realize that I hadn’t even thought about them. I had no goals for the New Year. Now that I sat and thought about what I should do, all of the choices I had of things to focus on was a little too much. So, I chose to simplify and go with the basics and build from there. Everything needs a strong foundation first, right?

For 2015, I’ve decided that my goals will be to write more, concentrate more on my health, learn to accept help from others, and to be more open.

Obviously you can see where my priorities lay, or perhaps it’s that I’ve already subconsciously decided which I can achieve and which are most likely not to succeed. Allow me to show why these are my choices.

  • Starting with one of the hardest choices of my goals: Be More Open.
    Being open about myself has never truly been easy. I’ve always said that I am an open book, and to an extent that is true, but I’ve never been truly open about my thoughts and feelings with others, unless they were in my “inner-circle”. So it is my intention this year to work on that openness.
    I’ve also chose to work on being more open in concerns of communication. I can communicate rather well, but I do not always do so. It is hard for me to just call someone out of the blue to just talk, writing a letter “just because” (I was a horrible pen-pal), or instigating a random conversation online. The odd thing about this, however, is that I can strike up a conversation with anyone in person, dropping by someone’s house out of the blue just to visit is not hard, but when it comes to doing so behind a paper & pen, phone call, or computer screen it’s another story. Therefore, it is my intention to work on this type of openness as well.
  • Next would be: Accepting Help from Others
    I am not very good at accepting help from people, nor asking for it. Even when I am at my wits end and breaking apart, I have an issue with reaching out to ask for help. I’ve gotten a little better at it since losing my mother last year, and for a little before then because of needing help with my kids while I took care of her, but it is still enormously hard for me to do this. If I am to lessen the stress in my life, I must learn how to do this. Therefore, it is a continuing goal that I am working on.
  • Concentrate More On My Health
    As a couple of you may know, I have very poor health. I have a couple genetic health issues, as well as others that I was diagnosed with at 16, that I am dealing with. I have a genetic disposition to blood clots (they are not fun, nor is the hospital stays), clinical depression (something I’ve dealt with for a long time but is only a recent diagnosis), anemia (low iron), and hypothyroidism. I’ve decided that if I am going to start feeling better, being sick less, and have any possibility of losing weight then I have to start doing my own research and figuring out what works best for me. I need to figure out what foods work best for me, what ones I can eat a lot of or need to eat less of, and what ones I need to keep an eye on. There are certain foods I cannot eat because of medication interactions, inhibiting thyroid function, and can raise the possibility of clots. I also have a hard time absorbing iron so I have to be aware of foods that can help with that.
    I need to keep a record of how different anti-depressants make me feel and keep a record of how I feel (emotionally, highs or lows, anxiety levels, ex….) and why. I need to make and keep as many appointments (blood-work and such) as I can.
    I need to pay more attention to meditation, and “me time” instead of allowing them to fall to the side. I need to begin Pilates again, regularly. I need to concern myself only with those whom care about and love me, not those that wish to harm me.
    All of these things will help me to become a healthier person, inward and out.
  • And finally: Write More
    Oh the many things I wish to write this year. The many things I wish to do with my writing.
    I wish to complete my manuscript for the book I’m working on. I wish to post to each of my blogs at least once a week.
    It is my desire to entertain and help with my writings. To give people a place to come for help without judgment, to tickle someone’s sense of frivolity, to allow for a place where someone may learn something new or open their eyes to another idea which would allow them to look for their own answers. There is so much and so little that can be done with writing, and I wish to tap into, and use, that endless possibility this year.

These are my goals for the year and I will endeavor to work on each of them. I may not complete any of them, because I do not believe that any of them could truly be completed except the manuscript, but by working on all of them I will become a better person.

Have a wonderful week my lovelies and a wonderful New Year.
Blessings & Warm Wishes,

YaYa 😉

What are your goals this year?
Do you have a support group to assist you?

Musings From An Upset Mind

Now… lately there seems to be a string of childish behavior. An epidemic really, and I’d like to address it.

I can’t voice any one else’s opinion on this subject, as I don’t know it, but I can voice mine and so far all I can come up with is – Some people need to grow the *insert any word of choice here* up!!!!

We are adults, childish behavior needs to be left behind with the childhood, or in some cases “teen”, years and if you still feel the need to act like an adolescent then feel free to put on a diaper and grab a bottle. Childish behavior helps no-one and gains you absolutely no sympathizers, although in some cases as people tend to lie quiet well they do have some.
How I wish the truth could be voiced to them but what good would it do? We must wait on Karma, as people will always “reap what they sow”in the end.

Now, this type of behavior does, howsoever, in most cases gain you the title of “Self-Centered B****”, be you male or female. It gains you the ability to look like someone who hasn’t learned that the world doesn’t revolve around you, and is able to isolate you into a place that no-one wants to be.

I’m tired of the “Poor, Poor Pity Me” trip and people who tell lies to gain whatever gram of sympathy they can from people who truly just want to love you for you and be there as family, friends, to just be together.

I guess that’s all I have to say on this now other than, No-one is a pawn to be used by another. We are all individuals who create our own happiness and are entitled to that happiness as well as keeping that freewill that allows us to keep those who wish to bring us down out of our lives.

The flip-side of this is that when those who have wronged us may or may not be able to enter our lives without a door being there for them to use.
 So when/if we tell those who continually bring us headaches to take a hike because we don’t need, nor desire the stress they induce upon our lives, we should also allow them the door to enter our lives again. We can accept the apology, or just accept that they have changed, until evidence contrary to this presents it’s self. And hopefully those who are family will realize we love them and want them as a member of our lives, but we hold the right to be individuals without requiring their permission to be who we are. We also hold the right to kick them out again should they begin the same BS again. Unlike a child… an “Adult” doesn’t require more than one chance, and is old enough to know that a true apology means they WON’T repeat the behavior and will do all that is necessary to prevent a repeat performance. 


These are my thoughts and now that it is off my chest I feel slightly better. I hope this little rant of mine can help another but if not, It does help me.

Warmest Wishes and Wonderful Thoughts to you,

Ya-Ya

P.S. Do not let the “Emotional Vampires” of the world “suck the life” out of your day. Be strong, and continue being positive.

Man, I just love Stress

Today I had a very rude awakening. I had lain down for a nap while my children were with their father outside in the yard, if you can call it that. My yard is basically just dirt. Which my boys, being boys, love.
My eldest enjoys riding his bike all around it, the dogs can go anywhere with them because it’s, well, dirt. My youngest enjoys it because there are so many rocks to be found and packed into mommy’s house as precious treasures, I could do without this but it just makes him so happy when he shows me.
( I secretly take them back outside where they belong later 😉 Sneaky mommy. )

Anyway, today we got a visit from a social worker. YAY! Just the added stress I needed in my life.
It’s not like I’m not driving myself insane trying to keep up with an autistic child, my 5 yr old, that would make the Energizer Bunny look like a turtle.
It’s not like I’m not stressing myself out trying to be sure that my eldest has the best education I can provide for him, he’s home-schooled.
It’s not like I’m going constantly because I’m trying to be the best caregiver I can be for my mom, whom has terminal breast cancer and is bedridden.  So, thanks to my nursing background. I can do a lot for her.
It’s not like there is so little stress in my life that I needed a little boost of adrenalin and a check to be sure my heart and tear-ducts still work.
And most of all, it’s not like my 9 yr. old is so care-free that he needed to become so worried about being taken away from his family that he started plotting where he could take his brother and him to hide so that if someone came to take them away they wouldn’t be here to be found.
Thank You, you mystery person, that just knew exactly what we needed at this time.

   YES!!! I needed this stress added to my life at just this moment, and my kids, mainly my 9 yr old because my 5 yr old didn’t really comprehend what was going on, were over-joyed to be scared to tears.
Thank you to who ever decided that they would be kind enough to do this for us. It’s JUST what we needed.