Rediscovering Me –
I can’t believe how much I’m looking forward to this either… the ‘meals’ and drinks… it’s like my body is waking back up after a semi-coma slumber. As though I have been moving through sludge… struggling to get out but clueless as to how, and now I’ve begun the process of climbing out of that pit with a set plan and the proper set of tools to actually do it.
Every new day is a black page to be wrote upon, each chapter a new year. What you wish to fill those pages and chapters of your book with is up to you.
Recently I was approached by the admin of Beautiful Outlaws about joining a group on Facebook that she had set up. The idea she has for this group is “helping each other succeed in our New Year’s resolutions”, a group to help eachother stay motivated, and to be the “cheerleaders” for eachother. She asked each of us to introduce ourselves and to state what our goals were for the year. This was not a hard request, but it did make me realize that I hadn’t even thought about them. I had no goals for the New Year. Now that I sat and thought about what I should do, all of the choices I had of things to focus on was a little too much. So, I chose to simplify and go with the basics and build from there. Everything needs a strong foundation first, right?
For 2015, I’ve decided that my goals will be to write more, concentrate more on my health, learn to accept help from others, and to be more open.
Obviously you can see where my priorities lay, or perhaps it’s that I’ve already subconsciously decided which I can achieve and which are most likely not to succeed. Allow me to show why these are my choices.
Starting with one of the hardest choices of my goals: Be More Open.
Being open about myself has never truly been easy. I’ve always said that I am an open book, and to an extent that is true, but I’ve never been truly open about my thoughts and feelings with others, unless they were in my “inner-circle”. So it is my intention this year to work on that openness.
I’ve also chose to work on being more open in concerns of communication. I can communicate rather well, but I do not always do so. It is hard for me to just call someone out of the blue to just talk, writing a letter “just because” (I was a horrible pen-pal), or instigating a random conversation online. The odd thing about this, however, is that I can strike up a conversation with anyone in person, dropping by someone’s house out of the blue just to visit is not hard, but when it comes to doing so behind a paper & pen, phone call, or computer screen it’s another story. Therefore, it is my intention to work on this type of openness as well.
Next would be: Accepting Help from Others
I am not very good at accepting help from people, nor asking for it. Even when I am at my wits end and breaking apart, I have an issue with reaching out to ask for help. I’ve gotten a little better at it since losing my mother last year, and for a little before then because of needing help with my kids while I took care of her, but it is still enormously hard for me to do this. If I am to lessen the stress in my life, I must learn how to do this. Therefore, it is a continuing goal that I am working on.
Concentrate More On My Health
As a couple of you may know, I have very poor health. I have a couple genetic health issues, as well as others that I was diagnosed with at 16, that I am dealing with. I have a genetic disposition to blood clots (they are not fun, nor is the hospital stays), clinical depression (something I’ve dealt with for a long time but is only a recent diagnosis), anemia (low iron), and hypothyroidism. I’ve decided that if I am going to start feeling better, being sick less, and have any possibility of losing weight then I have to start doing my own research and figuring out what works best for me. I need to figure out what foods work best for me, what ones I can eat a lot of or need to eat less of, and what ones I need to keep an eye on. There are certain foods I cannot eat because of medication interactions, inhibiting thyroid function, and can raise the possibility of clots. I also have a hard time absorbing iron so I have to be aware of foods that can help with that.
I need to keep a record of how different anti-depressants make me feel and keep a record of how I feel (emotionally, highs or lows, anxiety levels, ex….) and why. I need to make and keep as many appointments (blood-work and such) as I can.
I need to pay more attention to meditation, and “me time” instead of allowing them to fall to the side. I need to begin Pilates again, regularly. I need to concern myself only with those whom care about and love me, not those that wish to harm me.
All of these things will help me to become a healthier person, inward and out.
And finally: Write More
Oh the many things I wish to write this year. The many things I wish to do with my writing.
I wish to complete my manuscript for the book I’m working on. I wish to post to each of my blogs at least once a week.
It is my desire to entertain and help with my writings. To give people a place to come for help without judgment, to tickle someone’s sense of frivolity, to allow for a place where someone may learn something new or open their eyes to another idea which would allow them to look for their own answers. There is so much and so little that can be done with writing, and I wish to tap into, and use, that endless possibility this year.
These are my goals for the year and I will endeavor to work on each of them. I may not complete any of them, because I do not believe that any of them could truly be completed except the manuscript, but by working on all of them I will become a better person.
Have a wonderful week my lovelies and a wonderful New Year.
Blessings & Warm Wishes,
What are your goals this year?
Do you have a support group to assist you?